Reflection on the Past ~~ AWFF

Sometimes I read really old stuff. I mean REALLY old stuff from when I was in middle school. My first thought is 'Dear gods... I think I was practicing to be in a sit com drama' and other times I did have some pretty deep damn thoughts.

But a huge humongous part of my past was less real life friends, of which the few who count are still in my life  or thought of in great frequency, and there certainly is no shining spot for assholes. All they got was a check in my list of 'Mistakes not to make again' and moved on.

No. A huge part of my life and what made anything terrible able to be solved was roleplay. I loved it. I adored it. It was writing and I could write with other people. The fact there was a surprise as to another actions fascinated me. I adored having a character less for matching them with characters (although this often happened because well it seemed inevitable with my characters. They like having personalities and tell me to write these things sometimes.)

but I loved being in the worlds. I loved having my character interact with others as if I was really there. As if Itisha was off beating the snot out of some punk jerk shaman or Mailia was off saving the world from heartless and blasting a giant ass hole in the door leading to the Second District in Traverse town.

My place I flourished was AWFF.

Roleplay and AWFF memories always went hand in hand. Kingdom Hearts ultimately went to AWFF.

All World Final Fantasy

My home away from home.

I found it searching for the full five minute version of Utada Hikaru's Simple and Clean. Which by the way was nigh impossible, but I did it. Right on AWFF's main page was that song. I poked through and they even had Legend of Dragoon on there and I was hooked in the awesomeness of it all.

Then I registered and poked through the forums and found roleplayers there. It was awesome. So in a stunt to just feel at home. I started the first in about 7 threads of Kingdom Hearts roleplay where Mailia grew. Changed. Personality formed. History made. Rose created. Both of them. Friends met, stories made and it was amazing.

At that time I must have been about gosh... I forget. I was close to being 12-13 years old. I met one of my closest friends (still close) Gin. Lived across the ocean from me, but it was odd that we clicked so well. We spoke easily despite the language barrier and we could talk when things drove us crazy. I was at that level of determined to at least catch an hour or two of chatting that I would wake up at 3 in the morning to match his time zone a bit and chat to him. I was a crazy youngster like that. Probably the only time I willingly went to bed early and woke up early ever back then. xD Because it certainly was not for school.

Certainly one of the very few men in my life that I cared about as more than a friend without ultimately wanting to murder them with my truck. Now he is in league with my small group of close best friends :D

Life whisked me away when AWFF went down without my knowing. I felt lost without it, although I was blessed to have a few friends I did keep in contacts from AWFF and those who weren't from there. They kept me sane. They roleplayed with me.

Even listened to my emotionally driven ranting I had to get off my chest. Such amazing people.

When AWFF came back (as I checked on a lark. Because AWFF was just that important to me) I was ecstatic.Even more so to see that one person there I would recognize without a doubt because hell he never changed his screen name. Gin.

I signed up, built a new little home in the rp section. Made a wonderous friend out of Vaidia (who is fantastic seriously. She freakin rocks the socks off stuff with her writing) who I believe I knew in the old AWFF but alas I was a shy girl and stuck to things I knew.

The second time around I went to other threads and made friends with everyone. Chatted with them. When on to make a nifty chibi thing for everyone. I was happy and then sad as the thread was dying and thusly taken down.

But forever. I know. I have friends from there. People still lurk around that I know and we recognize each other and go HI THEEEEERE OMG HI

It will be a huge awesome part of my life. Roleplay as a word will always take me back to those memories. And I will certainly grow up telling my son about all of the silly conversations and adventures that place had because it was awesome.

SO without further aidue I shall list of people's usernames I can remember. (Or their nicknames/real first names)

Gin
Vaidia
Rezner
Perry (Flashback)
Till
Plastic
Artifical
Gav
Meena
Adrian
Chloe
Juan
Kite
Ash
Hinata
Allison
Stephen
Prince Lefty
M (It starts with an M he used to help mod the page... Mavrick? There probably was one of those two. Hah I forget)
Steven
Kimmie

And anyone I forgot. Thank you. So very much for making a huge impact on my life :D

I love the hell out of all of you.

I would also appreciate any of my old AWFF friends to help me finish up this list with anyone I may have forgotten. Thank you!

--- Gaint Planet Load of Cookies from Anaia